I wish you a Kinder Sea

All hat and no cattle, all feelings and no efforts; do you see it for what it is or your mind’s idea of it?

~ notes from a deep introspection

I wish you had a kinder sea to drown in. It would help with your anxiety… Salt on the rim of your world’s glass. It smells like a home you’ve never seen. But the ocean won’t save you…. The constant chattering of dolphins. The post-punk songs of lonely whales.

If 2024 showed you hurt, abuse, trauma and grief, I wish that you heal from it with self compassion and learn to trust people again. I wish that you realize that it is not going to work like this anymore and loosen your grip and nurture the damaged and tender parts of yourself. I wish that you stop accepting what you do not deserve because what you allow is what will continue. I wish that in 2025, you start setting boundaries and stop entertaining relationships that do not deserve your efforts, even the slightest greetings. I wish that you learn to forgive others, but not let them access you again. I wish you treat people the way they treat you; going cold on those who went cold on you. I wish you forgive yourself for all the mistakes that you made. I wish that you embrace beauty of change around you and the strength and lessons that it brings forth, keep an open mind, make changes you've been putting off and leave that shit behind. I wish that you set yourself free of tugging past energies and resentment. I wish that when hurt comes from the people who you thought were the closest to you, let them go for your sake and heal yourself to mend your heart into a stronger shape. I wish that this year you no longer accept breadcrumbs and low effort treatment. I wish that you learn to accept the end of connections and let them go to make space for what truly nurtures your highest good. I hope that you allow yourself to change your mind, but without hurting and betraying anybody.

“Healing comes in waves, be patient”

I wish that you learn what is right for you and what you truly deserve from all the relationships that were destroyed, for every disappointment you suffer, for all the wounds and scars you garnered.

I wish that 2025 fades your scars and closes open wounds. I wish that the scabs don’t get picked at and you don’t re-enter the loops of negative cycles. I wish that you heal from scars and mend your heart into a better shape.

I wish that you set yourself free of fake people, mind games and drifting individuals. I wish that you become brave to accept that it is perfectly okay to let go of what does not serve your highest good and not lower your standards out of loneliness. I wish that you pull the plug on those who are quick to preach and promise, but rarely deliver. I wish that you reaffirm your values and your needs. I wish that you overcome cognitive dissonance and detangle the feelings of hope and familiarity.

I hope that you give yourself the closure for the friendships that you lost and quiet-quit their way out of your life. I hope that you remind yourself that for all those times that people ghost, avoid, discard you - it is them and not you and it is upon them to step up to take their accountability. I wish that you remind yourself time and again that your worth is not determined by their behavior. I wish that you no longer give your time to anyone who makes you feel like you are a waste of it, because maybe you are not a screw-up but just with a person who has no emotional accountability. And I wish that you someday you too become bold enough to silently cut off such people.

For every breakdown that occurs after a breakthrough, I can only realize that storms come to clear your life, not just create disruptions. I wish that you remain grounded during these storms and trust yourself. I wish you learn that someone else’s beauty and success does not take away your own.

The perfect human being doesn’t exist, some people are dealing with more than others but everyone’s pain is valid. Thus, when I pass you, you may be in pain, you may be tired, you may have to deal with something soul-crushing for quite some time now, know that, I truly wish you a kinder sea.